I think I'm stressed because of my bad habit of procrastination. Sue me for considering it. I told myself that I was just lazy or bored, but to be honest? Lets see you pass up every chance to work, just to finish five assignments that you were meant to be working on for five month all in the span of an afternoon. I know it's my fault, but now that I'm here, I wish I could ask someone for help without feeling like it's too late.

I think my teachers are too nice to me, I see them scold other students for not working but they only let me off with a little reminder. I wish I had a guide to life in general, let alone for my studies and work. I wish the adults treated me with less kindness.

To be honest, what I want the most is the strength to keep pushing myself to do things I must to. Hum. 200425

First entry of my web journal! Do you like this layout? I do, I'm not the best at web design but this is just my personal journal. I want to name you as the reader and as my journal. I don't know, I will think of it later. Also, I'd use little emoticons to show how I feel but I'm pretty sure I can't add text decor here, shame.

Recently, I have been very mentally unable to do the things I think I must do. Making this website was actually a project I really wanted to work on for a long while, but I want to admit to you, I only started working on this recently to avoid my other tasks... People think I'm always busy and hop from project to project, which I guess I do, but when it comes to my education, I am actually really prone to procrastination. It's a horrible habit, I know. I often put things to the side and silently complain about the little time I gave myself to work with.

Actually, me writing all of this is actually just me getting away from my coursework... If anyone were to read this, I hope it isn't my music teacher. 190425